Our Gorgeous Girl Is Here!

YES! It felt like FOREVER. Really, I thought I was going to be pregnant forever - time was passing so slowly and I kept thinking it would drag on till I died of misery. I exaggerate not. This little girly was heavy, my lower back was burning and pinching constantly, which meant that I certainly was not sleeping. Aside from the physical pain I was having this time around I was so mentally exhausting towards the end (both from feeling like I was stuck in a never-ending pregnancy, and from the horrendous amount of baby brain I had). Carrying a girl was so different from a boy, at least for me there was stark differences. I had heartburn after eating pretty much anything, and my swelling was worse then when I was carrying Soeren. My stomach was queasy and I tended to get nauseous if I smelled or tasted something that wasn't to my nose/stomachs liking. In the beginning of the pregnancy I was completely nauseous all the time, I never threw up, it was just that constant miserable nausea. Little Missy was quite a mover! She was moving a lot, all the way through my labor and delivery too.

As the last month was ticking away I was making sure to enjoy my last moments with Soeren-Raedek, the best that I could. Happily enjoying our time together before the little baby came. I took him to different places to play and explore while I could, in anticipation of the weeks where we wouldn't be getting out as much. It definitely helped the transition for me, because I was able to slow down and think about how things were going to [possibly] be (since I didn't know how it would be to have two little ones with me, I had to imagine to the best of my ability). He transitioned very well but that is for a different post. I am trying to briefly recap on a couple things and I will try to elaborate on a few later!



Wow, so I am just dragging on as well as being a little bit of a Negative-Nancy over here. SO on to the labor, which was a faster and easier scenario -- and quite an easy story to tell actually! My water broke at 8:30PM and I began steady contractions at roughly 10:00, they progressed evenly and nicely from 10 minutes apart, to 2-3 minutes apart by 12:00. I tried getting in the shower at that point, it felt nice, but I was so worried it would cut out my contractions like it had with Soeren-Raedek that I didn't like the feeling of my worry, so I hopped on out. That is when it started getting hard and they were coming quick so there was less time for me to recover in between. As the intensity rose I felt nauseous, but I didn't vomit like I had when I was at that point of intensity with Soerens labor. Then with quite a bit of support and a lot of people (Autumn, Chris and the birth assistant) to push and strain on. I was in a sitting position when she was born (same as when Soeren was born), at 2:45AM on the 26th of December 2011. She is so much more then I could have ever pictured or made up in my mind those months and months waiting to see her beautiful face. My heart bursts with the love I feel. I love my gorgeous baby girl so much.

So much is ahead of us, but also so much is with us and happening right now. I am in love with my babies, and in love with enjoying the time I have with them - the crazy and quiet moments equally. Even though quiet moments don't happen very often, they happen, and and that's all it takes for me to love the crazy moments just as much!

Where am I!?

This was originally supposed to be posted towards the end of October.. I don't remember the exact reason I never ended up posting it. As you can tell it kind of abruptly ends, so I probably had more to say and then forgot to come back and post it. Smart. Haha I will be writing a better update post here very very soon. To update on the lovely new baby :D !!!! 

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SO two months seems like a long long time. Two months seems like an eternity at this point, to wait to get my brain back, my body back, and my life back to a semi-normal state. NOT saying I would want to go back on this pregnancy or anything like that in the slightest, it will just be nice to have a good long (possibly forever) break after baby #2. Beautiful baby #2, whom I am so anxious to meet that it is starting slow down time.
When you are pregnant your mind and brain function so differently, call it "baby brain", or "pregnancy brain", whatever you call it - it sucks. It doesn't go back to normal after birth either, it is definitely not the same, but you still will never have the same brain so to say. Which is kind of creepy, its like all the hormones and chemicals hijack your brain and swish it around however they please. Kind of like you went crazy and used a bunch of heavy drugs or something. Personally, this second round has been annoyingly worse, AND I know from experience that it will end, but it still has me stuck and 'dumb'founded.
Needless to say, this "baby brain" has me irritated. I want to debate and read and think through things clear headed, and in the same manner I used to. But my brain literally feels like mush, so you can imagine that does numbers on the ego. Mix this with my personality, and I find myself getting upset at people because they aren't interacting with me how I want them too - how they used to! I also am quite good at getting vibes from people, whether talking to them or not. During pregnancy however, I think I am cracking down hard on myself, because I have been feeling a lot of pregnant-ism, or stereotyping of the fact I am pregnant, or just flat out judging me as having nothing to say - 'cuz I'm just pregnant.

On other happier, not so self-pitying notes:
Soeren-Raedek is walking like a champ - EVERYWHERE. He jumped right out of the "I'll walk when I want to/crawling is faster" phase. Now he rarely crawls, unless he is playing by himself with toys, or if he for some odd reason wants to crawl on the wet sidewalks.
He is always hungry hehe, and has turned into quite the toddler attitude boy.
He has realized he can draw  -  he has been scribbling for quite some time, since he was about 12 months, but now he has been intentionally drawing things, coloring, writing, and the like. He has the best form to when holding writing utensils! It is quite astounding.