Where am I!?

This was originally supposed to be posted towards the end of October.. I don't remember the exact reason I never ended up posting it. As you can tell it kind of abruptly ends, so I probably had more to say and then forgot to come back and post it. Smart. Haha I will be writing a better update post here very very soon. To update on the lovely new baby :D !!!! 

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SO two months seems like a long long time. Two months seems like an eternity at this point, to wait to get my brain back, my body back, and my life back to a semi-normal state. NOT saying I would want to go back on this pregnancy or anything like that in the slightest, it will just be nice to have a good long (possibly forever) break after baby #2. Beautiful baby #2, whom I am so anxious to meet that it is starting slow down time.
When you are pregnant your mind and brain function so differently, call it "baby brain", or "pregnancy brain", whatever you call it - it sucks. It doesn't go back to normal after birth either, it is definitely not the same, but you still will never have the same brain so to say. Which is kind of creepy, its like all the hormones and chemicals hijack your brain and swish it around however they please. Kind of like you went crazy and used a bunch of heavy drugs or something. Personally, this second round has been annoyingly worse, AND I know from experience that it will end, but it still has me stuck and 'dumb'founded.
Needless to say, this "baby brain" has me irritated. I want to debate and read and think through things clear headed, and in the same manner I used to. But my brain literally feels like mush, so you can imagine that does numbers on the ego. Mix this with my personality, and I find myself getting upset at people because they aren't interacting with me how I want them too - how they used to! I also am quite good at getting vibes from people, whether talking to them or not. During pregnancy however, I think I am cracking down hard on myself, because I have been feeling a lot of pregnant-ism, or stereotyping of the fact I am pregnant, or just flat out judging me as having nothing to say - 'cuz I'm just pregnant.

On other happier, not so self-pitying notes:
Soeren-Raedek is walking like a champ - EVERYWHERE. He jumped right out of the "I'll walk when I want to/crawling is faster" phase. Now he rarely crawls, unless he is playing by himself with toys, or if he for some odd reason wants to crawl on the wet sidewalks.
He is always hungry hehe, and has turned into quite the toddler attitude boy.
He has realized he can draw  -  he has been scribbling for quite some time, since he was about 12 months, but now he has been intentionally drawing things, coloring, writing, and the like. He has the best form to when holding writing utensils! It is quite astounding.